A short weekly recap

An exercise is perspective and accountability

Pessimistic feelings and a brief reflection on Saturday nights

Saturday nights in New York are hard for me. There’s this big expectation of a night out, pressure to stay late, and this feeling like being lost in the sea of nightlife.

If I go out, unless I’m performing or I’m with friends, I feel this weird sense of perpetual FOMO.

If I don’t go out, I feel trapped at home, impatient and wishing I was farther along in life.

More often than not, I walk around the village, and sit, staring at the outside of the Comedy Cellar, imagining and meditating on what it’s like to perform there.

In the interest of perspective, or when we read this back, retrospective, here’s what I accomplished this week and what I hope to accomplish this next week.

This Week I,

• Got on stage 6 times

• Did another audition at a local comedy club (no dice yet)

• Sent out a few dozen job applications, 50+ cold emails, and wrote up a few contract proposals for short-term software contracts

• Had about a dozen interviews for a new job in tech

• Workshopped a new duo clown act.

• Went to 2 conferences, one for design, and one for branding

  • I learned how to iterate through designs using newer workflows with magicpattern.com (so worth looking up)

  • I learned about rethinking through challenges using lego to visualize systems (Shout out to Brandon at in8create.com)

  • I learned about buffer.com and the benefits of queuing up social media posts (should seem obvious but for some reason, it wasn’t)

• I wrote a bit. Maybe 3 jokes I quite like and a few edits that seem to be pretty successful on stage

Some challenges:

Late nights, Father’s day is always a bit frustrating, inconsistent sleep, inconsistent exercise, stress about money, the job hunt, the uncertainty of what’s next, cigarettes (not done with me yet), and dealing with job rejections.

This Next Week I,

• have my 2nd produced show in NYC: Ludo Comedy Volume 2 (please come)

  • I’ve decided that end of year, I’m going to produce, direct, & film, my first stand-up special loosely called “I don’t know what I’m doing” - Once a month, I will be stretching my material and rotating through candidates to see what I want to present.

• have my first clown act in NYC at the Cirquehaus Open Stage - Very loosely formed act. Bit of a f*ck around and find out type of act.

• Will get on stage probably every day - the new cycle for auditions at the local comedy club start

• meet with a mentor

• have more interviews

• will potentially start a short term contract for work

• will write more - hopefully a lot more.

Temporary Pessimism

Tomorrow, I’m going to wake up an optimist- start a new week and see what I can accomplish.