A short weekly recap
An exercise is perspective and accountability
Pessimistic feelings and a brief reflection on Saturday nights
Saturday nights in New York are hard for me. There’s this big expectation of a night out, pressure to stay late, and this feeling like being lost in the sea of nightlife.
If I go out, unless I’m performing or I’m with friends, I feel this weird sense of perpetual FOMO.
If I don’t go out, I feel trapped at home, impatient and wishing I was farther along in life.
More often than not, I walk around the village, and sit, staring at the outside of the Comedy Cellar, imagining and meditating on what it’s like to perform there.
In the interest of perspective, or when we read this back, retrospective, here’s what I accomplished this week and what I hope to accomplish this next week.
This Week I,
Got on stage 6 times
Did another audition at a local comedy club (no dice yet)
Sent out a few dozen job applications, 50+ cold emails, and wrote up a few contract proposals for short-term software contracts
Had about a dozen interviews for a new job in tech
Workshopped a new duo clown act.
Went to 2 conferences, one for design, and one for branding
I learned how to iterate through designs using newer workflows with magicpattern.com (so worth looking up)
I learned about rethinking through challenges using lego to visualize systems (Shout out to Brandon at in8create.com)
I learned about buffer.com and the benefits of queuing up social media posts (should seem obvious but for some reason, it wasn’t)
I wrote a bit. Maybe 3 jokes I quite like and a few edits that seem to be pretty successful on stage
Some challenges:
Late nights, Father’s day is always a bit frustrating, inconsistent sleep, inconsistent exercise, stress about money, the job hunt, the uncertainty of what’s next, cigarettes (not done with me yet), and dealing with job rejections.
This Next Week I,
have my 2nd produced show in NYC: Ludo Comedy Volume 2 (please come)
I’ve decided that end of year, I’m going to produce, direct, & film, my first stand-up special loosely called “I don’t know what I’m doing” - Once a month, I will be stretching my material and rotating through candidates to see what I want to present.
have my first clown act in NYC at the Cirquehaus Open Stage - Very loosely formed act. Bit of a f*ck around and find out type of act.
Will get on stage probably every day - the new cycle for auditions at the local comedy club start
meet with a mentor
have more interviews
will potentially start a short term contract for work
will write more - hopefully a lot more.
Temporary Pessimism
Tomorrow, I’m going to wake up an optimist- start a new week and see what I can accomplish.


Good luck on the auditions and interviews.
On the feelings of fomo and wishing you were further along with some things — I have this theory that for every stage of life we're in, there's some aspect we will one day look back on and miss. The key is figuring out what that is and enjoying it while it's here. That's the way to balance moving forward while enjoying the journey.